Do it again!

From within to without. From the debts of the Soul to the highest heights of the universe. I want to go there. I want to be as low as I possibly can get. I want to fall from the depths down through the sky. I want to experience the in between where the awareness of being alive is strong. I don't like the feeling of falling but sometimes I need to be reminded that I am truly alive. The only way I want to fall is from the ground through the sky. The wind in my face reminds me that every breath is precious. The moisture in the air reminds me of where I come from. The smell of the Earth gives me the awareness of how far away I have strayed. The fire within me says," let's do it again!"
I want to feel the ethers that hold the fabric of life intact. I want to be non-existent and omnipresent simultaneously. I want it all and I don't want a damn thing. The in between is the comfort zone where most want to stay. B But I say ,"do it again!" The comfort, you see, is in the falling. The fear lies within the landing. We fall for much longer periods of time than we land. Yet the landing in it's brief moment can feel like an eternity. I say," do it again."

Mother,Woman,Child.

I have been the child of the absent mother. I have been the cargiver of the present mother that's doing her best with what she has. I have been the woman well before it was time to be. I have been the woman praised and executed. I have been the woman with immense power and no identity. I have been the new mother without a clue. I have been the mother who would die for her children and country too. I have been the mother taken foregranted. I have been the absent mother.
It's funny how things come full circle. I am still a child, still a woman, and still a mother. I am now a free woman. I now know who I AM. I am now a present mother even in my absence. I am now alive enough to appreciate it. I am now all the praise I need. I am now the child that creates and heals. I am now the seasoned veteran of life. I am now the teacher because I am the perpetual student. I am now my DIVINE SELF and I am proud of the trinity that is ME.